He never knew & had never known,
The deep-rooted pain I had never shown,
The hidden shadows of fears from the past,
The thought left me anxious & aghast,
Life was never the same again,
A lesson learnt…to abstain,
From being true & vulnerable,
Underwent the pain of love in vain,
Took not months but years to succumb,
Chose a path that helped me overcome,
This horrible nightmare, burried, concealed glum,
Affected mentally & physically
Leaving behind scars & wounds,
Healing consumed me
& I forever doomed.
Insecurity & Unacceptance,
Unmet expectations & Rejection
Not easy to deal…..
From those you love selflessly,
Hurtful words said with so much each so senselessly
Your needs lying naked defencelessly,
Only leaving you shattered, tearing, helplessly,
No! You can never be the same again,
You will always remember the lessons learnt to Abstain,
Run from vulnerabilities
& fear the pain of love in vain,
And brings shivers from
The slightest sign of
Insecurity, unacceptance, neglect, rejection & past domains.
As crazy as it may sound, as insane,
This is just how our brain administers restraint,
He will never understand what I sustained & what remained.
Scars of the past, brain fog
& mental strain.